I can't tell if I'm losing my mind or reclaiming it.
It could just be menopause. At least, that's what I keep reading. Except...I take hormones, so that's not supposed to happen.
Here's what I do know: When I am depressed, I can't keep up, physically or intellectually. I hang back, I'm slow, I wander, I don't grasp conversations, and I can't keep track of what people expect from me. I just can't connect the dots. I can't follow the rules because I can' rmember what I'm supposed to say or how I'm supposed to interact.
Do you have any idea how frustrating that is?
It makes me even more of a dory dork than I am under the best of conditions. Ugh.