Friday, December 3, 2010

After boredom, what?

I've been working at my current jobs for almost 15 years. Prior to that, being at the same job for more than three years was epic for me.

I'm tired. More than that, I'm bored. Boredom certainly isn't a crisis, but it does feel wasteful. It's not that I dislike what I do, I've simply lost interest. There's no intellectual or creative challenge. How can I move on, though, when I have nowhere to go?

This is no time to go job hunting--not that I plan to. However, even if it were a possibility, I would be faced with this hard fact:

  • I have no idea what to do with my life, what to do for a living. My current work showed itself to me like a vision, and it was so clear, I knew that this was where I belonged. Now that's it's been 15 years, I'm ready to move on, but I have nowhere to go. There is no epiphany, no bell, no lightbulb.
Nothing makes me sit up and say, "Yes! that's what I should pursue."

In 1995, I spent four weeks working with a coach, of sorts, who walked me through some soul-searching, aptitude tests, career clusters, and interest inventories. She concluded that I should be working in telecommunications/media or catering. I was actively in the process of getting out of the telecom/media world, and catering felt too emtoionally demanding--I can't stand having to make the general public happy, especially under stressful circumstances.

Beyond those options, no other career areas stood out in my battery of tests. Perhaps this is why I feel so directionless now.

I need some sort of psychic GPS for my life.

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